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Am I Brave Enough To Write This Screenplay?

From: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
To: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
Date: May 30, 2010 8:24:44 AM PDT
Subject: Inevitable…but not predictable…

Wow. There’s a hard one.

Bought the book Thursday and about 3/4 done with it. And you know I’m a slow reader. Awesome book. Thanks for the suggestion.

I find myself reading some of this and thinking to myself, “can I really do this?” I hope so. I have optimism but then doubt. Like, I wrote and recorded an entire album that I thought (and still think) was pretty good…but no one else seemed to care. So that fear carries into this venture as well.

Did you know this dude died like 2 or 3 years ago? He was only like 60 or something.


From: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
To: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
Date: May 30, 2010 9:51:05 AM PDT
Subject: Re: Inevitable…but not predictable…

On May 30, 2010, at 8:24 AM, J**** B** wrote:

Wow. There’s a hard one.

That’s what SHE said.

Bought the book Thursday and about 3/4 done with it. And you know I’m a slow reader. Awesome book. Thanks for the suggestion.

It’s the best nuts-and-bolts book I know. It’s aged a bit since I first read it and could use an update but all-in-all it’s top notch.

I find myself reading some of this and thinking to myself, “can I really do this?”

Which parts?

I hope so. I have optimism but then doubt.

Fear and doubt are normal. Going ahead and doing it anyway is what separates the dreamers from the artists. There is a 99% chance you will fail. Knowing that and finishing it anyway takes guts. Believing in that 1% is a long stomach churning journey*

Like, I wrote and recorded an entire album that I thought (and still think) was pretty good…but no one else seemed to care. So that fear carries into this venture as well.

I am so glad that C couldn’t care less about the movies I make. She’s going with me to the Seattle premiere of my last movie and it will only be the second movie with me in the credits that she’s seen. (Third if you count that short film I produced). The only other movie with me in the credits she’s seen – she has TWO credits in it and her forearm has screen time. …and we both worked the box office at the World Premiere. I don’t think she was there for me. 🙂

Life’s journey, not a destination. An album is just a record of where you were musically at that point in time. The fact that your family and friends couldn’t care less is normal for all the bands I’ve known – and I live in a city where every freaking bar has a stage (it seems), and lots of people are selling CDs out of backpacks. (Actually, that’s not true. CDs went away years ago. Now they give out postcards with iTunes gift codes. )

This is your dream, not theirs. They’ll be happy for you. Some may even be a tiny bit proud. No one will really care. They care about you, not your dream.

That’s not a bad thing. It’s better that way. Let the fans love your art.

Did you know this dude died like 2 or 3 years ago? He was only like 60 or something.

It sucks that we don’t have hundreds of years to do all the things we want to do. I’ll never own a movie theatre or a pizza parlor. I’ll never fly a plane. I’ve probably had my last cross-country drive. Oh, well… new dreams are shinier. Maybe I’ll mix my way to an Oscar – or give up movies altogether and teach new media.

Either way, my life has been full of a lot of different experiences and I don’t think that’s going to change.

I’m so glad to hear you finished your album. I hope you continue making music, albeit age appropriate. Don’t be like Linkin Park and be 45 years old singing about teenage shit. It’s okay if your tastes/attitudes/outlook/style matures.

Be a grownup. Like this: http://youtu.be/dvf–10EYXw

Of course I’ve always believed you were more at home in the day to day of a working actor than the day to day of a working musician in a band, but then again – not my dream.

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Glad to head you’re writing something of substance. I don’t have the guts to write things about people who are still alive. Maybe I’ll do like Mark Twain and seal it up for 100 years after my death. (Did you hear about that? Google it.)

– Gerald

*Years before the producer of a Robin Williams project noticed me and recommended me to a project with an Oscar nominee in it, C and I lived in a 270 square foot apartment and ate off of a hot plate in a coat closet while I worked non-paying, non-credit gigs. I worked on this short-lived series where the star/exec producer was clinically insane and had a thousand year old dog in diapers that I almost killed. Talk about stomach churning fear.


From: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
To: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
Date: May 31, 2010 12:28:01 PM PDT
Subject: Inevitable…but not predictable…

Oh shit, that’s right, you hadn’t heard the entire album! If you want a copy, send me your address and I’ll send you one. God knows I have roughly 400 extra copies (literally).

And about what you said around me as a working actor vs. mucisian…I couldn’t agree more. But it’s been a long road to figure that out. Well worth it because I can appreciate what I’m doing so much more, I’m WAY less inimidated by any of it, but it may have been nice to figure this out in my “prime” of “looks” but I don’t know that would have been best for me. We’ll see as this unfolds.

So as a first draft of my byline itself (can’t remember if I shared this already), my story is about, “a highly functional and successful bipolar man fights to overcome his toxic lifestyle.” Would love your initial feedback.

This could change, but in my head, I see the opening scene at a dance club playing my song, “immure” of the album. I don’t know if you heard that one, but it’s perfect in tone for the first half of the movie about a guy in an insane asylum. I know that might very well change, but it’s just some trivia for you when you get the album. And Lexi (the cat) has a singing role in it too. The chick singing in the middle is me on the vocoder and I named her Margo. Lol…remember that? Bitch lives on. Hahahahaha…

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What does the word “epic” mean? Is that like “episodic”?

From: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
To: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
Date: May 21, 2010 1:31:28 PM PDT
Subject: Acting, Writing and Day Jobs

I’m shooting a movie on Sunday…small role in an indy film. Should be fun…we’re shooting on campus at UNT…which I’m sure is going to swamp me with memories of life right before I met you. Crazy, huh? I haven’t really been on campus since then. I went to a few shows over there of Mark’s (guy I used to work with at GTE) but that was at one of the bars on the outskirts of campus. Remember Farmer Brown? That guy. Oh wait, you’ve been to one of those with me, hadn’t you? Anyway, I’m sure this will be fun if it doesn’t rain. Lol…

My character’s name is B**** T******. I’m this 30-something year old guy that hangs around on college campus and basically “manages” a street dancer chick. So, clearly something is wrong with me. She loses a big dance off right there on the street and I yell at her for it. Lol… I think I even get to do an improv rant to buy time while the main characters take their “Prize” from us and move on. I don’t get to drop any F-bombs though, which is a real shame since that’s like second nature to me.

In the mean time, I’m doing my day job on my laptop and working on my notes for my script and trying to map out how I want this to work. Question…does the term “epic” for a screenplay mean the same thing as it does a book? Start in the middle, go back to the beginning and work through to the end? Or is it something different?

How’s your eyeballs doing now? Still as bad as last week?


From: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
To: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
Date: May 26, 2010 11:57:33 AM PDT
Subject: Re: Acting, Writing and Day Jobs

I’m shooting a movie on Sunday…small role in an indy film.

There are no small roles, but motherfucker there are some pretty small actors out there, let me tell you. Especially when there’s no money and long days. Sheesh.

Should be fun…we’re shooting on campus at UNT…which I’m sure is going to swamp me with memories of life right before I met you. Crazy, huh?

I don’t remember your life before I was in it, because I wasn’t there.

I haven’t really been on campus since then. I went to a few shows over there of Mark’s (guy I used to work with at GTE) but that was at one of the bars on the outskirts of campus. Remember Farmer Brown? That guy.

C and I were jamming to “Lawn” just a few weeks ago. We even have the proper cover art for it in iTunes. (The CD is in storage in Texas).

Oh wait, you’ve been to one of those with me, hadn’t you? Anyway, I’m sure this will be fun if it doesn’t rain. Lol…

I thiiiink so.

My character’s name is B**** T******. I’m this 30-something year old guy that hangs around on college campus and basically “manages” a street dancer chick.

A scumbag.

So, clearly something is wrong with me. She loses a big dance off right there on the street and I yell at her for it. Lol… I think I even get to do an improv rant to buy time while the main characters take their “Prize” from us and move on. I don’t get to drop any F-bombs though, which is a real shame since that’s like second nature to me.

You’re the guy she hates enough to do all the stuff in Act II.

In the mean time, I’m doing my day job on my laptop and working on my notes for my script and trying to map out how I want this to work. Question…does the term “epic” for a screenplay mean the same thing as it does a book? Start in the middle, go back to the beginning and work through to the end? Or is it something different?

Epic just means big. Episodic means many chapters. Non-linear means time jumps around. A saga is an epic episodic story that may or may not be linear.

How’s your eyeballs doing now? Still as bad as last week?

Doctor increased my drugs so I’m a horror show. It’s half-over now. Two more weeks then I wake up from the nightmare.

But then walking around my neighborhood cheers me up.

HI, Youra Dumnass

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How To Write A Screenplay, Square One

From: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
To: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
Date: May 13, 2010 1:40:27 PM PDT
Subject: Screenwriting

The last time I wanted to write a screenplay was with you way back when. Thought about trying another one here and there, but never really had a story idea….until now. So, I have the fevah again…but no knowledge from a technical point of view in how to write it…like “set your margins here, double space it, this is italics, this is not” kind of thing. Do you have/know where to find something like that that doesn’t cost anything? Remember way back when we pioneered the internet…remember when you could find anything for free? Lol… Well, you probably still know where it all is, but I don’t.


From: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
To: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
Date: May 13, 2010 5:06:33 PM PDT
Subject: Re: Screenwriting

If you have money falling out of your butthole, buy Final Draft http://finaldraft.com/products/final-draft/

If your butthole is cash-free, download Celtx. It’s free, open source, and cross platform. Best of all, it automatically formats to industry standard everything, and saves to PDFs. It’s actually pre-production software. I use it to do the script breakdown and make the budget and schedule – but the word processor in it is Final Draft-compatible and it’s free… so I stopped using FD in 2006. Pick it up here: http://celtx.com/download.html

Real-Wold Advice: Unless you plan on selling it, the margins on your script doesn’t matter. Write it like a stage play if you want. Use WordPad (or whatever it’s called now). If you ARE planning on selling it, this is required reading: http://www.amazon.com/dp/1580650155

Also recommended:
http://www.amazon.com/Screenplay-Foundations-Screenwriting-Syd-Field/dp/0385339038
http://www.amazon.com/Stealing-Fire-Gods-Dynamic-Filmmakers/dp/0941188655

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Can You Name Drugs By Name In A Movie?

From: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
To: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
Date: May 10, 2010 7:40:01 PM PDT
Subject: Drugs

Any idea what the legalities are in using brand drug names in a screenplay?

Sent from my iPhone


From: Gerald (neuroticnomad@gmail.com)
To: J**** B** (*********@*******.***)
Date: May 10, 2010 10:09:00 PM PDT
Subject: Re: Drugs

It depends on the story. People use the names Viagra, Valium, Tylenol, Midol, (etc.) all the time, but only in passing.

If the plot revolved on those drugs it would be different, especially if you are making the drugs look dangerous or make claims that can be considered false.

Change one letter. Zoloft becomes Zolott or Soloft and your ass is covered.

Sent from my iPhone

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Re-Birth of a Blog.

OK, this blog is just rusting away.

I’m writing a book on Pre-Production, so here’s where I’ll put my mental notes.

No one reads this blog anyway.

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